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2 days ago my mom turned 59! one week ago from today she started her first chemo treatment. we were so blessed that it worked out that we were up north, and were able to end up staying with her through the 6-hour session. (for those of you who may be new to the blog, i wrote about my mom getting diagnosed with cancer back in may)
we're not sure how she'll react to the chemo. she said she's nauseous and her bones are aching. she'll loose her hair in another week or so.
i would have postponed the wedding and waited till she was back to good health but she wouldn't let me. sometimes i want to just break down and cry and have a pity party. actually, on monday i did have a bit of a breakdown. but i'm not the one going through it, she is. i just get really sad at the thought of my beautiful lovely mom being sick. i need my mom. she is a capable mom. she takes charge, she gets things done. and i need her in the coming weeks before the wedding. i know, it's totally selfish.
i guess these 2 photos are what i am feeling right now. sometimes peace. sometimes feeling like i can't do it. at the end of the day i know that i can only do this through His strength. i will trust that everything is in His perfect timing. i am filled with joy that she is and will be okay and feel blessed that they caught the cancer before it spread.
anyway, just wanted to give you all an update. i was so touched by all your comments, messages, and emails from when we found out - thank you. her next chemo session will be august 25th and i am hoping to go up and be there with her again. having my mom go through chemo while planning the wedding is totally doable, right? i say yes.